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Recovery Time

It usually takes me a few days to recover after I visit my daughter.  She's living her dream in Kentucky.  Good for her!  Time to get my big girl pants on and move forward!  Wrote this after coming home this weekend.


Missing you...

I only cried once today
Missing you just this way
A one minute smile
Just for a while
Missing you – will it go away?

A little time gives relief
A steady stream of busy things
Pulling me away from life
Reality or just a lie?

I only cried once today
Thinking about the time I don’t have
in sweet moments of nothingness
And time filled with less, no stress
Missing you – missing time

Filling in moments of the day
Cluttered with important things
That make the feelings go away
That make the feelings fade

Single thoughts to focus on
Remember just the good
I only cried once today
Rejoicing in what I could

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